Reforming, Redefining, Resurrecting

5 months have flown by..

Processing and resonating the harsh reality of the past within the whole month of July after that incident felt almost forever. 

Reminding  my own self to let it go was much easier said than done.

Many times I do put myself down a lot for that, after constantly reevaluating the whole past situation.

Even though I felt a whole lot sense of relief knowing that I have nothing to overthink about anymore, given that whole amount of burden and pain rubbed off my shoulders for good..

I've feared for the worst which might've just happened, as well-- Well that is..

Losing him. As a friend. 

Depressed, lonely and confused.. as I always was, 

I deprived for help from friendly strangers from the outside who were just as lost as I am.

Been withdrawn from the physical outside world for too long. 

The tormenting feeling alongside to my state of loneliness was slowly killing me deep within..

Even despite with my greatest, closest, reliable companionship throughout my darkest period, I was seeking for real further guidance out there to help me to overcome this real sense of emotions and vulnerability whelmed within me.

Without any further hesitation, I decided to attend an online meetup session, which involved a social platform gathering from many kinds of different networks all in one roof. This include every any random attendees expressing out their personal interests, opinions and issues related with their ongoing lives. 

Flashing back to 23rd July 2017,

Not only will that particular date be always be marked as the day I showed up in that meetup..

It' will always be marked as a special, significant day of the year, which transformed and changed my life forever.. as I met the most dashingly empathetic, courageous, fearless, affectionate being who's been highly supportive of me overall as a person and a partner and who's willing to accept me based on my past life stories, deepest inner secrets and flaws..

Life works miraculously.. Who knew..

Who literally knew.. That a casual, random, online meetup gathering could lead me to manifestation of destiny.

Was amazingly enough how my life paradigm shifted and transitioned so much towards forming a better version of myself in such a short manner of time.

Thanks to the most gifted being I could ever ask for.

Would have taken longer than expected towards recovery from past heartbreak.

Would always have high trust issues towards almost any guys... Specifically any fucked up dudes who only think of nothing but just satisfying themselves. 

But then you came into the picture and proved me wrong. U proved that a true gentleman such as yourself still do exist in this current generation.. Although it seems rare.

Till this very day, I'm still beyond eternally grateful for all your debts..

For every little given treats, from every little simple meals to every little simple road trips..

as much as I didn't want you to always overindulge me..

And also for lifting me up, guiding me, helping me and coaching me.

Not just as your life partner, but also as an individual myself. 

Nothing but eternally beyond contentedly grateful and blessed.

Knowing someone like you from an unexpected place at that coincidental point of time almost felt as if hope, faith and destiny actually do exist. 

It felt almost surreal and magical.

Like a real fairytale. ♡